I received this poem on 18 April 2011 while I was struggling with the huge internal changes and transformations that were happening to me. With this poem came a huge sense of peace and surrender. For me this was a real felt sense of being held and guided by Grace, and truthfully I feel that it brought me to a new level of surrender...
Blessings to one and all
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Spring Clean
Effortless flowing eases through my limbs
Opening doorways I never knew
Secrets come tumbling forth
I am unprepared
Yet a Silent Voice speaks
Trust little one
All is well
This is but a spring clean
Openings after openings
The tightly wound becomes undone
Frightened & scared
I sit alone in my mess
Yet a Silent Voice speaks
Trust little one
All is well
This is but a spring clean
Fury spews forth
Tumbling down into sorrow
Endless openings
Of feelings denied
Yet a Silent Voice speaks
Trust little one
All is well
This is but a spring clean
I sit in despair
All of me is unhidden
There is no escape from me
I am scared, I am lonely, I am undone
Yet a Silent Voice speaks
Trust little one
All is well
This is but a spring clean
Finally in all my sorrow
I begin to listen to this silent voice
Noticing the openness
from all the openings
The Silent Voice speaks
Trust little one
All is well
This is but a spring clean
I notice the gaps & spaces
And drop into the silence left behind
My inner world stills
My spring clean is done
Received 19 April 2011
Openings – inlets of Grace
Causing relaxations
Freedoms to be released
Simple truths bring earth shattering beauty
My heart rests and my soul begins to sing
Softly at first
The love is gentle yet flowing
Waves of peace break onto my shores
Endless lappings eclipse my doubt
My days of fear are done
Rest comes easily now
When all the fight is over
I imagine this is what death feels like
The final release into the gap to beyond
Effortlessly my body is surrendered
The screaming child within is satisfied and at peace
Beloved I look to you in wonder
Did you know?
Have always know the endless opening
That was available when I took the leap
Rest easy little swan
Your transformation is complete
Be in the moment
The piece where all life stands still
Effortless ease embraces you from all sides
Your fight against what is – is finally done
Beloved centuries will pass and I will go on loving you
There is no boundary to the infinite
Silence is your closest ally
Your easy opening into my sea of love
Ever present
Ever flowing
Invites all
All of you must dive in
Nothing is left behind
No pattern or logic can call you back
You are my eternal child
There is nothing you can do to create a rift in this sea
It is but a choice to give yourself freely to this love that we are
And in that leap of surrender
The ocean of the universe fills every gap
With grace so that all of you is supported,
Held and christened in this sacred waters of grace
You are always held
- yet it is the sacred action of the fall
That allows you to experience love meeting you as you leap
Fall into my love and in the falling you realise
All that you fall through is also my love
Noticing that the you who is falling
Is not the you – you thought you were
But the you who you always are
Beloved true all encompassing love
Love falling in love with itself
The ultimate act of selflessness
A dying to who you thought your self to be
And a remembering of who you truly are.
The only question that remains is....
Are you ready to Leap???
Received 20 April 2001
Beloved, what wonder you can see touch and feel
You in all your wondrousness often forget
the simple pleasures and joys that surround you in every moment.
You wear clothes to shield you from touch
You spend hours with electrical equipment which can never
offer your eyes the depth of joy natural views brings you.
Your life is disconnected with who you truly are
- you become disconnected with your unique wondrousness.
Beloved the time has come for you to awaken to your own sensuality.
You ability to sense your way through life
To open your heart, mind and being to fully experience what is around you.
When was the last time you put your bare feet on the earth?
When was the last time your body rested on a natural surface?
So often you ‘go out’ into nature yet you never touch it.
You keep your shoes on – you daren’t take them off.
Now is the time for you to choose.
Do I want to connected or disconnected?
It is a simple choice
If you choose connection
Physically get outside and touch the world in which you live.
Touch the concrete and the grass,
The telephone poles and the trees.
Feel your way like a human surveyor
Let your senses bring you into connection with your environment.
Now once connected allowing your emotions to show what feels good and what feels joyful.
Then do more of that.
It is not for me to tell you what you prefer or what brings you into alignment
– its for your own internal experience to guide you into living again.
This week I have been challenged by debt and feelings of being indebted to others. I pride myself on integrity and transparency and somewhere in my mind it seems not ok that I have debt. It can sometimes feel dirty and wrong. A wise friend of mine and I were talking about debt and she said the quickest way to release debt from your system was to practice self forgiveness for taking part in actions that went against your inner truth. Like when you override your gut or your heart and choose to play along to keep the peace or status quo.
This really struck a cord with me and I must admit I really struggled to forgive myself my pride had me wedged firmly between a rock and a hard place. Something had to give, and as per usual that something was me!
So after avoiding sitting to be still to receive the silent voice guidance, I finally relented and went into meditation. The words came so fast I had barely settled myself down into silence.
The message was clear. Forgiveness is a practice that I need to practice and mostly on and for myself.
The silent voice lead me in a guided meditation to give my mind something to do while my heart forgave itself. It is something that I will be doing daily from now on and for that reason I would love to share with you the meditation I have received.
Many blessings for today.
Enjoy, listen & transform….
This post, comes in response to a wonderful question posed by my uncle.
"How do you know its God speaking?" So even though I have asked this question many times before, I thought, it best to ask again .... And here was the response I received on the 18 March 2011
I am the silent voice in your heart
The one that always speaks of love
Who is always there holding you
I am your guide and travel companion
Your beloved
Just as you are mine
I am your higher self
Yet I am more than that
I am your guides and angels
Yet I am also more than that
I am this that embodied every avatar
Yet I am more than them too
I am the complete collection of all there is
The alpha and the omega
There is nothing that I am not
And you like every person on this planet and other planets are this too
Yet I am more than your combined consciousness
Anything you can imagine
I am this and more
Anything you can experience
I am this and more
Beloved, you are love, a tiny spec of my infinite love
Yet you are also the embodiment of this infinite love
Be love
Be who you are right now
No changing
No conforming
Just for this instant
Give yourself permission to be in your wondrous powerful self.
Silence speaks through the wisdom of your heart
Yet you do not trust it
Instead you go outwards for answers you never find
No person can give you what you seek
It can only be awakened
Then it is up to you to open to this and begin to trust this silent voice within
There is so much the mind seeks to understand
Both the conscious and subconscious are in a constant state of flux
Realities are shifting and the norm no longer exists.
In every moment a new template is created.
So in every moment you have a choice
Do you create it out of trust or out of fear.
In these times of great flux.
You are beginning to see and feel
The difference of a reality created
From love or one from fear
Trust me, little one
It is not about choosing
The ‘right’ one
Or the one based in love because I said so.
It is about feeling your way
Through these realities and then beginning
to discern which choice brings you more joy.
My aim for this planet
is that it is a planet filled with joy laughter and an abundance of love.
It is however up to you to create this.
There have been many wise ones who have spoken about the path of surrender and joy.
The way you choose doesn’t matter only the choice is important.
Noticing every time you choose love it dissolves another bit of fear,
Just like light dissolves the darkness.
Remember the avatars and the wise ones, the saints and the sinners all had the same choice.
The truest meaning of sin is choosing fear over love.
This world of yours is transforming as we speak.
A Dynamic paradigm shift is awakening
this cosmic choice is in the very DNA and energetic bodies of every living thing.
Trust in this opening it is a hugely grace filled time.
Yet the terror of change is upon you.
Who will you be if you change?
Who will you be if you do not?
All of this frantic seeking for answers that only the being with the new reality can offer
is making you any many others like you crazy.
You are so used to choosing your fear filled lens
that you have forgotten how to trust.
Beloved there is nothing to fear.
Listen to me now.
I go before you and behind you and I can carry all your fears.
There is nothing I cannot transmute into this love that I am.
Your only task is to release the fear to me.
Admit that your scared, frightened, confused, angry ,upset….
And decide to hand it over me.
In this cosmic handing over of your burdens – you are actively choosing love.
This very act can and does transform lives in an instant.
Surrender your need to carry your burdens.
It is the weight of this fear consciousness that makes an experience heavy and hard to bear.
If you were to choose to surrender the fear and allow yourself be held by me and your angels.
Then choosing love will be effortless.
So starting right now beloved
Choose 1 burden
1 way in which you are choosing fear in your life.
Now imagine in your mind’s eye
Wrapping up all that fear, pain sorrow angst and fight into one big beautiful parcel.
Imagine placing it in your heart and giving it your final blessing.
Then release it.
Bowing and honouring to this suffering and handing it over to me.
Your infinite self.
Open up and relax your body, being and mind.
Allow your muscles to release and relax.
Open up to this new state of awareness
- the absence of fear.
Experience it
What is it like for you in this instant?
If there is any pain or fear left
Just take a moment to release that too.
Be like a child innocent in the gap and allow love to reveal itself to you.
This process maybe subtle so just keep aware of what
your body, mind and energy feels like.
Allow this state of grace to open you up and hold you.
Let this love that you are,
That I am, create a reality based on love.
In every second a new reality – a new now
Experienced through the lens of love.
Sometimes vulnerable or insecure
But always safe and protected.
Trust this love that you are will keep creating more love in your life.
This is automatic – there is no need to keep choosing love –
You are pre-programmed and if you notice fear arising
choose again to release it and let it go.
Give it your blessings and surrender your need to carry it.
With every breath I am there beloved.
Trust that I will hold you throughout this.
All that is required is the ability to admit your own fears
– to surrender them and release them back to me.
I can transmute all things in an instant for I see only perfection.
Every living thing is perfect in my eyes
Even the presence of fear.
When I hold fear in its own perfection it transforms back into love – this that it always was.
Fear is just love dressed up.
This dressing causes so much suffering.
So now is the time to surrender it.
Let it go back to me.
And rest easy in the love that remains
I look forward to our next chat
In all love
The Silent Voice.
The Silent Voice – 8 of April 2011
Freedom Flows through you like a
Stone falls through the water
There is no resistance which can hold back
Or impede your freedom.
It flows right down into the depths of your being.
As it drops downwards it sends ripples outwards
– Tiny Shockwaves of Grace
Which affect every aspect of your Being
So that Nothing is left untouched
My divine design is perfect
A web of complex simplicity
Total connection between all things
There is never a choice or an action
That doesn’t affect the whole.
Nonetheless, there a state of Grace that is more powerful that all others
It is the frequency of Love.
Divine Unconditional Love.
And how do you know when you’re feeling it?
It’s an embodied feeling.
Not just a thought or an emotion in isolation.
The Grace of Love
Is always in relationship
There must always be something that you believe yourself to be separate from
for you to love it.
And similarly it always seems that there is something different from you
that loves you back.
This is my sweetest gift to you.
You are love
Beautiful Love Incarnate.
Yet you can only experience this love that WE are
when you feel yourself separate from this thing that you love.
Yet no separation ever existed.
On every level you are but an image of another.
immersed in this cosmic soup of love.
Some call it the quantum field, others matter and reality.
I call it ME.
This is why beloved you are me just as I am you
We are inextricably linked - a unique matched pair.
Yet by your birthright into your physical form you have been given this gift of Freedom.
Freedom to see yourself as separate from the whole,
in order to experience Love.
How many ways can you experience love today?
How many ways can you access this most powerful state of Grace.
This that transforms all pain, lack and suffering into itself
-Love
Take a moment right now to notice what parts of you seem separate from you.
And notice the huge freedom you have to choose to experience
Love loving itself unconditionally with this fierce tenderness.
Try it, start small.
- With and arm or a leg.
Or maybe even your heart.
Try it right now
Take a deep breath in
And out
Allow this breath to guide you into the web of Grace between you and this part of your body
Take a moment to sit with each breath as it uncovers this grace for you.
How does it show up?
Just keep noticing what you are experiencing – be innocent in your breath – childlike.
Discover the love between you and your body
This state of grace that is always present in every moment.
As you begin to access this grace within your own body,
You will begin to access it with others around you
Then the plants and animals will seem more alive to you.
You will begin to see how I see, to hear how I hear, to feel how I feel
With your senses locked on love.
The world transforms into heaven.
This that you dream of after death becomes alive in your physical life.
This is my divine design
Freedom to choose to connect with the Grace of love.
And begin to know yourself and this earth as love loving itself.
Then it no longer becomes an act of faith but an act of being.
Tried trusted and true.
Play with this,
In every moment I am here to guide you back into this most powerful Grace.
Rejoice in your apparent separation as it is facilitating your experience of love.
Till our next chat
Be love
Think love
Receive love
Notice how much this that is separate from you is experiencing Loving you!
Start with me …
This Silent Voice
How am I loving you in this instant?
Just opening your heart and receiving all this love in
Allowing it to really drench you
Soak right into your cells
Giving yourself the gift of being loved
The Silent Voice – Received 24 March 2011
Beloved, Beloved, Beloved
How could you ever feel lost at my breast?
You are my finest treasure
A Self actualised being
A triumphant symbol of hope
Yet the hopeful symbol is lost to you.
You seek what is yet unfound.
You cannot experience
the view I have of your life.
I see perfection at every glance.
Truth reverberates through,
the tunnels of time to you.
Yet you are the one
most in need of saving.
You have lost your wounds
and thus you feel
you have lost
your capacity to ask for help.
I am not one who only loves
the meek for I see the strong
as more needy of affection.
For those that have climbed
into their seats of personal power
become the most critical
of themselves
It is easier to guide the
Innocent for they know not
where they go
You on the other hand know
the path and the destination
And also the cost.
My path is not easy but it
May be effortless.
It is not common
but all commoners are invited.
It is not forever
yet it is eternal.
There is no purer prayer
than that of “Bring me home”.
Show me home in this moment.
Bring me to that place
of stillness where only
silence sings
No voice, no thought can
obliterate this peace
yet all are invited to bask
in this presence of the Home
you seek.
Little swan, you are my diamond
my wonderful creation.
Your magnificence is overwhelming.
Trust that I can hold your
gaze. Your brilliance doesn’t
faze me.
There is fire in my eyes
They blaze for your love,
for your life, for your heart.
I am the unconditional lover
you seek. Fall in love with me
and I shall bring you home to me
in every breath.
Trust is not a struggle but a choice
It is a sacred marker
Of a life transformed.
I am no more powerful that you.
Yet I have no capacity
to doubt. For I embrace it
fully as myself and thus I
fear it not.
Love is the only thing I am
and the only thing I am not.
I can never truly be this that I am
as I am forever growing.
My consciousness
has no ending and no beginning.
I am the cycle, the spiral, the way.
Yet I am but a breath
An instant of perfection
A mirrored glimpse of myself
I am joyous
I am free
I am stationary
I am stuck
You know me in all ways
I am no mystery
All of life knows me
As all of life knows itself.
Trust the path
Trust your way
as it is my way
There is never a decision I did not make
A word I did not say
A bomb I did not drop
There is no judgement
There is no cause
There is only
Eternal love
And this my child
is my gift to you.
Love
Sit in my love and all
Shall be revealed
Intro to the Silent Voice I hear through the spaciousness of my heart.
For a long time now when I get still and meditate a voice comes through me. I cannot claim the voice to be mine. Her words are divine. The best way I can describe the experiences is that my thoughts in my head normally even the enlightened ones, are like single bells rings out a tune. This voice I hear through my heart sounds like a chorus of bells each with its own pitch and timbre all played in an instant so their combined power is enough to transform you from the inside out. It feels like the world get so very still and at the same time my very cells seem to be excited with the grace of God.
When I ask this voice who she is, I get varied responses from “I am all there is” “I am everything and I am nothing” “I am source” “I am unconditional love incarnate” “God” “Truth” “Source”.
I have come to trust and open to this process. And after much fear and scariness of what people will think, I feel that I must share this that I receive as I know it is not for me alone. I am the tap God is the water. So if you fancy it, come and fill up here. I plan on posting my guidance every week. So if it calls you, have a read. Allow the words to permeate into you cells they way they transformed mine as they flowed through me. Let Grace guide you home.
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